As a mom who has lost a child I had packed away her special belongings I wanted to keep. As I have given many many things away to her friends and family. New Beginnings Intermingle With Old Memories when you lose someone you love. In more ways than one.
So as we prepared to get our floors redone in our home. We had to move things into one room. So they could do our bedroom and once done with it we would move things into it.
So as we begin cleaning and going through boxes I knew I would find the items I had put away of Suzzane. Never thinking rats would get into the boxes and destroy items I wanted to keep.
The saddest past is I can’t replace some of the items the rats messed up as they where pictures of Suzzane people had taken and letters people had written to me about Suzzane.
As the rats have torn the items up and you might say will just ask the people to rewrite the letters for me. Or ask if they have copies of the pictures. But I can’t as they were from my mom Suzzane’s grandmother and her biological grandfather.
So as I sit here with tears streaming down my face and Charlie and David asking what can they do. I look up at them and say nothing, just leave me alone. I need to be alone.
Which I am sure has hurt them just as I am hurting but once again I need time to come to terms with the grief I am facing over losing my daughter. Because even though it is only stuff it was hers and I feel like once again I am having to bury here.
So all I have to say if you have lost someone you love and you have mementos you want to keep make sure and store them properly so you don’t have to go through what my family is going through today.
Thank you,
Glenda, Charlie and David Cates
