Well, let me tell you I crashed and burned!! I had all the best intentions in the world to follow the goals I set for myself. I must say to you I crashed and burned. I burned I did it big time. And it is no one’s fault but my own. As I knew what I was doing and I knew how to stop it, but I didn’t. I let it happen.
So all I can do is to pull up my “BIG GIRL PANTIES” and to climb back up on the horse and try again. Let me tell you today hasn’t started out any better.
The way things are going, it seems I may fail again today as I can’t get Charlie to focus on his work. And to get it done. And David will be back in a while and want all kinds of things done. And I have so much work to do that I need to tie me to this chair.
Yesterday we spent most of the day in the hospital, and I couldn’t find my walking meters to track my steps. And I know those are excuses as I could have still walked but I didn’t. And I also didn’t drink as much water as I was supposed to. Charlie was hungry at the hospital, and all we had on our card was 3.45 cents. I was hungry as well so Charlie bought us both a candy bar as that was all we could afford.
And I know it sounds like an excuse, but I had to eat it as I was getting a headache and would have ended up sick if I didn’t eat anything. And my sister was out of town and couldn’t bring me anything. And David’s mom said she would, but I didn’t want to eat in front of David. And I also didn’t want to leave him in the room by himself while I ate. As I knew he was hungry as well as he hadn’t eaten.
Once we left the hospital, we went to check on Charlie who was at my mother in laws, and he wanted to stay over there for a while. So we came home, and I picked up my check and went to cash it. And yes, I know the $25 is all we have until David gets his last check tomorrow.
We were both hungry, so I took us to Griff’s Hamburgers, and I had a combo meal with a Sweet Tea, Bacon Cheeseburger, and Tater Tots. And I didn’t eat all of the Tator Tots. But I did drink Charlies Dr. Pepper and saved my Tea for today. And I ate half my Bacon Cheeseburger then I took the bread of the last half and ate just the meat, bacon and cheese. And I know it wasn’t the healthiest meal for me. It sure was good. And if I must admit it, I would do it again. As Griff’s Hamburgers is Davids favorite place to eat.
Then we start today, and I have had a piece of cheese. And one bottle of water. And I haven’t ventured out of the chair to do any walking. And I haven’t even gotten on the Treadmill which isn’t good because if I am not careful, I will fail again today.
I did weight this morning, and I am more significant than a house as I weigh 222 pounds. That is just horrible, and it is much more than awful.
Weighing 220 pounds, I am never going to get back down to my weight under 200 pounds and never get back to 150. So I may need to have Surgery which we can not afford.
If you have suggestions on how I can lose this weight that refuses to come off, please let me know as I do not want to get any bigger and that is what I feel like is going to happen. And it isn’t healthy, and it will put more strain on my hips and knees. And they already hurt bad enough, and I need to get them to stop, or I may not be able to walk. Or chase Charlie around which I love to do.
I shared with you that I ‘crashed and burned”! have you ever done that and what did you do to get back on track? And did you admit you “crashed and burned”? Or did you just give up and move on and if you moved on how did it make you feel?
Thank you,
Glenda, Charlie and David Cates
